Words fail me when I need to describe you
This blog is just a medium to pen a few ‘top of the mind’ thoughts of you!!
I can’t say that you are no longer here
Because I can feel your presence here, there and everywhere!!
My writing may appear rambling
But that’s how it would be when the mind is searching!!
Many many memories I hold of you
How and where do I start? Whew!!
Childhood memories are of you being mischievious and playing many a prank
I have wondered at that time if you would get into trouble and I would go blank!!
You were three, when all by yourself you got into a stationary auto
With my school notebooks in your hand you were dropped in my school, by the kind-minded automan!!
From my assembly line I saw my teachers calling me
And you sat in my class after that, with glee!!
I would always eat slow and you would always eat fast
You would then grab my share and run away faster!!
My long shaped face would make you call me a ‘banana face’ (vazhaikkai moonji)
The more I would get annoyed, the more you would call!!
I would study and study and study and get a sixty percent in my exams
With your grasping power, you would score way higher every time!!
No book in your hand have I ever seen
And tell me you would, that it is a waste to study all the time!!
“Write an article and send to this newspaper”, years ago you told me
I owe it all you for spotting the writer in me!!
Like any other pair of siblings, we have had our share of ups and downs
We argued and we fought!!
We healed ourselves at times in silence and at times reaching out to each other
And at times, we would stay sulkingly silent!!
Who is more childish, if someone would ask
Even now I am sure, we would happily point to the other!!
For you, life is
- a celebration
- to be lived joyfully and on your terms
- giving what contributes to others
My recent memories with you, will remain evergreen
Joyful, memorable and yet poignant!!
It is never a goodbye but always
Until we meet again.. au revoir.. punaH milAmaH.. auf weidersehen..
And when we do, it is my deep desire to see you
‘Create a legacy through purposeful and fulfilling contributions’
May 5, 2023 at 11:46 pm
Dear Malathi, Its a beautiful tribute to Jana, and well said. Your words capture the essence of the deep bond and love that siblings share, and the memories they create together that remain forever cherished. Though he is no longer physically present, he will always be remembered and missed by those who loved him.
May 6, 2023 at 7:16 am
Thanks Sridhar.. Indeed a delight to have connected with you again!! Brought back many a memory..
December 22, 2021 at 1:02 am
Writing is catharatic…… that’s what i often hear…. and reading your blog makes me believe in that.
December 21, 2021 at 4:19 pm
Every word is just apt, extremely touching and I do miss Balaji of the old, guy who would visit me at 8pm on most days, talk about Billbord Usa top 20 music, cassette recordings, listen to a few, walk along usman rd , never a dull moment and always up with a new idea..
Wonder why I lost touch after 1994 with this affable guy… miss him.
December 21, 2021 at 5:07 am
Moving, Magnificent & Mindful Malu… Balaji will remain etched in our memories forever…
December 21, 2021 at 12:02 am
Very touching Malathi. It must be really tough for you & your family.
December 20, 2021 at 3:03 pm
Your words are very deeply touching Malu. Very poetic and loudly shouts, “straight from the heart”…
I know it’s too early for Balaji to leave the planet… I guess it’s one of the mysteries of life!
I am proud of you for the way you have taken it and the matured manner in which you have handled the whole event.
My heartfelt condolences… Om Shanti!
December 20, 2021 at 11:08 am
Excellent malu. You have told your mind in a very nice way. Alas we have to accept the reality, however cruel it is. God bless you dear