It was a few statements (in bold) heard in the last few days that brought on this blog.

I have bought a 3-BHK and I want to show people that I also have the purchasing power,

I now have in my garage two SUV’s and I want people who need to know it, to know it,

I sometimes drop names to let people know that I know people,

I want to flaunt my wealth and my assets. 

To all the people who thought I wouldn’t get here,

I want to show them that I have got here.

Statements made by others that may have caused an impactful dent,

which caused a scar that keeps opening from time to time,

a scar that seems to have healed and yet not.

Words that may have been heard in childhood, during teenage years,

as young adults and during employment when stability was being established.

Words that may have been gnawing for a while,

a while that could be days or months or years.

A gnawing that may have led to a sub-conscious determination,

to prove to those who used the words,

a gnawing that has been running like a well-oiled cog of wheels,

constantly lubricated by the play of words, like background music.

The person (s) who used those words,

maybe the target of all anger for causing the impactful dent and hurt,

However, the person (s) may have also been the cause for the germination and

sustenance of the sub-conscious determination,

After all, they were the reason for the need to prove that,

a destination has been reached.

Is a thanks to them, needed therefore?

Time for a chit into the gratitude jar!!

Would be good to ask ourselves though –

What is it that makes us want to prove to the others, that we have reached?

this proving may come to fruition after many many years,

when the persons we want to prove to, may have long since gone,

So who do we want to prove to?

is it ‘we’ who we are looking for and not really others?

others have said what they did and have gone, have left,

they have gone perhaps to prove themselves to someone else 🙂

we stayed and so did the words.

We let the gnawing happen like background music,

we kept telling ourselves that we can’t do it,

we pulled ourselves down.

we kept telling ourselves that we can do it,

we kept driving ourselves.

Not to prove others but to prove ourselves,

because what were others words to us, became our words to ourselves!!!